Tuesday, June 22, 2010

How Ironic Beauty Is

A long time ago, if there are three things i hate most while dressing up to town, they would be:

Make-up, high-heels and handbags.

I would prefer to wear sandals, put on sports wear, give away lipstick since i dislike the smell (thanks to my natural pinky red lips) and drag along my backpack to travel. It is more convenient and easy and u dont have to complain about the pain u have to bear for wearing heels. And I savour to take public transports like buses, trains and LRT while studying in college than having a ride in someone's Mercedes Benz.

However, most women regarded these three precious things as mandatory and some couldn't live without them and i have friends who buy piles of new-branded high heels every month or purchased all kinds of colorful handbags to match with the suits. It is funny that although it is risky to carry handbags nowadays since you are prone 2invite snatch thefts to come over, wearing high heels for another reason could affect your backbones in the future and the fact that cosmetics may damage the skin cells, I consider our women as risk-takers for dangling handbags freely to shopping malls, enduring foot pain just to stand tall and confident, and putting on heavy make-up to look fashionably gorgeous.

If I were born a boy, i could have given up these three things easily and groom myself as a handsome gentleman, even without any cosmetics, heels or handbags.I would be a cool and funky guy, with spiky hairstyle whom many girls are running after for.

Unfortunately, I am just a woman with pride that apply these three things (though i hate them and dont use much) to look sweet and attractive.
Although inner beauty is important, I guess cosmetic beauty really counts to look best. LOL.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Greetings from India

Hello folks,
Thank u for the supportive comments in the previous post. I am now staying at my sister's crib at Manipal, India. The journey was extraordinary tiring; yet there'll be more to see after spending 3days in Mangalore.
Btw,I am attracted to this song by Shane Filan (the music adapts the Canon Rock if u notice)

BEAUTIFUL IN WHITE

Not sure if you know this
But when we first met
I got so nervous
I couldn’t speak
In that very moment I found the one and
My life had found its missing piece
(*)So as long as I live I love you

Will heaven hold you
You look so beautiful in white
And from now to my very last breath
This day I’ll cherish
You look so beautiful in whiteTonight
What we have is timeless

My love is endless
And with this scream I
Say to the world
You’re my every reason you’re all that I believe in
With all my heart I mean every world
[ Repeat (*) ]

You look so beautiful in white
So beautiful in white tonight
And if our daughter’s what our future holds

I hope she has your eyes
Finds love like you and I did
Yeah, I wish she falls in love and I will let her go
I’ll walk her down the aisle
She’ll look so beautiful in white
You look so beautiful in white
[ Repeat (*) ]
You look so beautiful in white.


Visit this video for the slideshow: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I6kD-LTCShg
But i hope Snow White will look beautiful in white somehow =)

p/s I'm flying to Agra this friday and right now, should have been looking for any Bollywood shooting 2fill my leisure time :p

Friday, June 4, 2010

A Good Friend is Hard to Find

For Allah knows the secrets of heaven and earth,
and He knows what you reveal and what you conceal. (Holy Quran, AL-imran:29)

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful. Peace be upon our messenger Prophet Muhammad SAW.

While i am writing this entry, i am in a very deep sorrow where there is no one to trust and no one to turn to. I feel so small and alone, like a dot on a piece of white paper. Like a nightingale which has just lost one wing. Dear God, why do in this world the power of evil surpasses the good? Why do in this world envy drives a person to slander others? If only they comprehend Chapter 49 in the Quran and learn to practice the proper Islamic teaching, the world will be in peace. But unfortunately, we can only preach and it depends on the individual to follow the right path.

Well, i am not perfect and in fact nobody is. But I dont want to be a Munafiq (hypocrite) who betrays/tells a lie/ insult others but it eaten me up when somebody tries to corrupt my image and reputation. And worse of all, that person is being judgemental without knowing me well. And when the person that we thought is our friend turns to be an enemy, now that i realize the truth of Prophet Muhammad's saying:

"A good friend and a bad friend are like a perfume-seller and a blacksmith: The perfume-seller might give you some perfume as a gift, or you might buy some from him, or at least you might smell its fragrance. As for the blacksmith, he might singe your clothes, and at the very least you will breathe in the fumes of the furnace."


Whenever I am down, i will analyse my mistakes and look for improvement. I remind myself it is only a test from God.

Thanks Allah for making me aware of being a true Muslim. I am blessed. As quoted from the Quran again, "Allah knows what you hide and what you reveal and He knows the recompense which you earn by your deeds.
"

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Kerana RM1

(Edisi Ke-2)

Sudah saban hari aku sibuk dengan tugas-tugas di pejabat. Masa yang diluangkan utk diri sendiri juga semakin terhad. Alangkah indahnya hidup ini jika masa yg bergerak berhenti buat seketika, sudah tentu aku dapat menggunakan peluang sepenuhnya utk melakukan aktiviti kegemaranku seperti menonton televisyen, bermain piano, berkunjung ke kedai buku, memasak dan membantu ibu bapa di rumah. Aku juga mula merindui rakan-rakan seperjuangan semasa di universiti dan kami hanya dapat berhubung melalui Facebook atau meninggalkan khidmat pesanan ringkas sahaja memandangkan semuanya sibuk dgn kerjaya masing-masing. Aku ada juga mendengar khabar sesetengah rakan yang sudah mendirikan rumah tangga dan ada juga yg sudah menimang cahaya mata pertama. Alhamdulillah, sungguh murah rezeki kalian. Semoga hidup anda semua makin diberkati oleh Allah Swt.

Sebenarnya aku ingin berkongsi satu cerita. Baru-baru ini, semasa aku melangkah keluar dari kereta dan berjalan menuju ke apartmentku, seorang kanak-kanak lelaki yang kecil memintasku. Aku menoleh dan memandangnya. Lantas dia berhenti dan terus bersandar di tepi pintu apartmentku. Matanya yang bulat terkebil-kebil manakala rambutnya yang nipis beralun lembut ditiup angin. Sungguh comel budak ini, hati kecilku berbisik.Aku tersenyum ke arahnya. Perlahan-lahan dia berkata kepadaku, "Kak...nak duit seringgit." Aku terdiam sejenak. Peminta sedekah kah budak ini? Hati kecilku tertanya-tanya. "Nak duit seringgit, buat apa dik?" Aku cuba menyiasat lebih lanjut.
"Nak beli aiskrim." jawabnya ringkas.

Aku meraba-raba dompet di dalam beg. Ingin kuberi rm1 tetapi hatiku terasa berat. "Adik tinggal kat mana?" tanyaku lagi. "Blok C." jawabnya sambil memandangku dengan gaya penuh mengharap. Aku masih berfikir-fikir dan mula bertanya diri sendiri. Mengapa minta duit pada org tak kenal? Mana mak dan ayah adik? Mengapa sungguh berani meminta-minta. Takde rasa malu? Kalau meminta pada orang jahat dan diculik, bagaimana? Sungguh banyak persoalan di benakku yang ingin aku lontarkan kepadanya tetapi aku tidak mampu. Perasaan belas kasihan yang tinggi lebih menguasai fikiranku. Aku menghulurkan rm1 kepadanya dan jelas die tampak gembira. Digenggamnya duit kertas bernilai seringgit di telapak tangannya yang kecil lalu berjalan ke arah kedai runcit di seberang apartment.

Aku lantas membuka pintu apartment dan melihat rakan serumahku sedang menonton televisyen. "AKak, ade budak minta duit seringgit kat luar tadi." aku memberitahunya. Rakanku tidak berganjak dari sofa dan matanya masih melekat di kaca televisyen. "Budak tu comel,kan?" dia bertanya dan menoleh melihatku. Aku menggangguk2. "Alah, tadi akak pun jumpa dia. Dia mintak duit. Ada ke patut suka hati mintak duit." katanya lagi. "Akak bagi ke?" tanyaku. Dia menggeleng dan berkata, "Takda pasal nak bagi. Akak cakap kat dia, akak takda duit! Pergi balik. Bukannya dia takde mak bapak. Minta la kat mak bapak sendiri."

Aku terdiam.
Salahkah aku memberinya duit?
Salahkah aku tidak menyelidik latarbelakang budak itu dengan betul sebelum membuat keputusan itu tadi?
Ya Allah, mungkin ibu bapa budak itu melarang budak itu membeli aiskrim dan aku telah memberikanya rm1 untuk membeli benda yang dilarang.
Dan mungkin budak itu juga tidak tahu apa yang dilakukan tadi salah dan dalam masa yang sama, aku telah mengajarnya meminta2 kepada orang yg tidak dikenali. Dan mungkin juga dia akan mengulangi kesalahannya lagi.

Oh, Tuhan.. walau apa pun alasan budak itu, kau lindungikan wajah comelnya daripada kejahatan manusia dan kerosakan akhlak. Sungguh malang ibu bapanya jika dia tidak diasuh dengan jln yang betul.

Semoga Tuhan merahmati.