Sunday, February 13, 2011

I will Reach You

If you've got a candle,
you'd better light it now.
If you've got a voice,
you'd better shout out loud.
Raise your hands above this crowd,
I will reach you :)

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Brainy vs Attitude

You know you're getting old(er) when your friends are getting married and start having kids. ~Old-town friend, 2010.

Is marriage the bond of two minds?

10 years ago, my ideal boyfriend would be someone who is:
1 - Handsome (..with a cute smile to die for!)
2- Impressive personality
3- Intelligent and smart
4- Rich but money comes the last!

To tell you the truth...10 years ago, I believed in the love of Romeo and Juliet, when you fall in love with a handsome guy who is able to sacrifice anything for you. Materials are out of the questions coz I believed in true love in which it could happen in a second and it haunts you forever once you are hooked to that someone. Love is sweet, love is what makes the world go round.

Conclusion: Good looks on the top of the list, followed by the guy's personality, intelligence and money income.

What happens after 5 years?
...I started deciding that my ideal soulmate would be someone who is:
1) Intelligent enough to impress me and my gilrfriends
2) Charismatic personality
3) Handsome
4) Not so rich since money comes with an effort

Yes, 5 years ago, intelligence becomes my priority.I realized a smart and brainy man would hold a potential future of a better living. Attitude is important too but looks matter less. Money is essential but someone who is striving for money by his own is better than the wealth inherited from the family. Being wise and intelligent helps you to get more money in the future.

Conclusion: Intelligence comes on the top, followed by charismatic personality, good looks and economical stability.

What happens after 3 years to now?, i started selecting that my ideal future husband would be someone who is:
1) Wise in personality with strong religious view
2) Strong financial background but not necessarily rich
3) Smart but not necessarily intelligent
4) Handsome but not necessarily cute

Conclusion: Personality ranks the top, followed by money, intelligence and good looks.

Now, i realized life is not a fairy tale. Attitude and money go along together. You can never survive your life and parents' expectation without them.An intelligent man is none without a strong good personality, wise judgement and strong religious view. Looks do not matter anymore while wealth does. They give you power to regain influence in your family. You can't live with love alone. In order to nurture the love, you need money to sustain the relationship.

People's perception changes.
I am confused of what ppl really want in a marriage.
But our Malay society shapes me.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Mommy, I love you

I'd been staying at Ipoh Hospital for three days.
Mommy is warded due to her excessive lump on her right part of body.
Unfortunately, the stay had turned out damn boring with no entertainment etc (plus, the wifi is slow and i failed to access the internet at all!). I tried to finish reading the autobiography of Mahatma Gandi - the Experimental of Truth, but the lights off lead me listening to the mp3 i borrowed from Ika.
The best and least thing i could do is - I used to lay down on bed beside Mom all the time.
Some nurses are just annoying, not to mention the Pak Guard who scolded visitors who break the rules of visiting time.
Thank God Mom shows a gradual change of a better health condition.
Taking care of her reminds me of her constant love and care towards her children.
Touching her hands grasps my thought of how lucky to be close to her right now.
I miss you, Mom.
I love you now and until the day i lose my breath.